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Can't stop the pain no matter how hard I try
The time has finally come to say goodbye
Hurts so much,I don't know
how to feel
Cry so much,pray this wasn't real
It's hard when your not ready to let go
But it's for the best,deep
down you know
Time to let you finally be at rest
It hurts so much,but it's for the best
Time to let you be at peace
and move on
To admit,your not coming back,your really gone
Losing you is the greatest pain I ever knew
I'll never
forget, I'll always miss you, Kayden, I love you
Goodbye
I'm not ready to say goodbye
I'm not ready to let go
Your loss, I wish to deny
A life without
you, I don't want to know
Goodbye, the word I can't seem to say
Goodbye, means you're really gone
I'm not ready to
say goodbye today
I want you here with me, where you belong
Try to deny what I know deep in my heart
Pretend that
you're still here
It tears my soul apart
That I can't hold you near
I want to say its all a mistake
That youre
really here with me
But, as I feel my heart break
I know that it will never be
Goodbye my son, I love you so
I
just never thought I'd have to let you go
.
Can't stop the pain no matter how hard I try
The time has finally come to say goodbye
Hurts so much,I don't know how to feel
Cry so much,pray this wasn't real
It's hard when your not ready to let go
But it's for the best,deep down you know
Time to let you finally be at rest
It hurts so much,but it's for the best
Time to let you be at peace and move on
To admit,your not coming back,your really gone
Losing you is the greatest pain I ever knew
I'll never forget,I'll always miss you,Kayden,I love you
July 28,2003
...Today my heart was torn apart
Today my dreams were shattered.
Today I lost my soul,my
heart
Today I lost all that ever mattered
Today I said goodbye
To the son I'll never know
Today all I can ask
is why
I ever had to let him go
Today I held him in my arms
His still,unbreathing,tiny body
Today no wishes
or magical charms
Could bring my baby boy back to me
Today life was given then taken away
And nothing I can say can
ever portray
The way I feel inside
Today,a part of me Died.
Try to make the tears and pain subside
Try to make it all go away
Whats going on,my minds denied
But the truth is there to betray
What my mind is trying so hard to deny
To pretend it's not really true
To myself,I live this lie
Because the truth,I'm not ready to pursue
That means admitting that you are gone
And I can't let myself believe that you are
So into my own little world,I've withdrawn
Letting myself believe that from me your not very far
That soon you will be coming back to me
That this was all a mistake,a nightmare
This world I've created may not be reality
But it saves me from my inner despair
I want you to come home,to where you belong
I can't stand that this may be real
I just want for them to be wrong
I don't know how else to feel
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| One of the images from one of Kayden's ultrasound. |
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| Another one of the images from one of his ultrasounds .. so cute isn't he |
http://www.pregnancyloss.info/memory_garden.htm
https://members.tripod.com/patchofheaven2/boybg.html
http://www.angels4ever.com/graphics/sets.html
http://www.sandsvic.org.au/
http://www.nationalshareoffice.com/
http://www.thelaboroflove.com/forum/anndouglas/5.html
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